“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.”
I’m sure we’ve all heard or maybe even recited the well-known Serenity Prayer at one point in life… but this morning, as my stubborn, tantrum-filled, strong-willed, hysterical 2-year-old screamed bloody murder because I would not let him push the buttons on our microwave (seriously), this prayer flashed into my head and slowly morphed into the parent’s version…
“God grant me the patience to not let tantrum get to me, the strength to not let parenthood break me, and the wisdom to know this is ‘just a phase'”.
“God grant me the serenity to totally emotionally disconnect from this moment, the strength to stay in my imaginary ‘happy place’, and the wisdom to never come back to reality.”
Too harsh? Probably. Don’t get me wrong. I love my little boy every single minute of the day, but raising a toddler is not for the weak. Parenting is not for cowards. I have said this many times, but this morning’s episode shined new light on the truth in that phrase. Granted, I am especially run-down and tired being very pregnant, working, and dealing with all sorts of everyday stress. But, these moments where Little C tests every bit of patience that I have sometimes start a chain reaction of worry and fear. “We’re doing this all over again? We’re going to have two of these little monsters? HOW are we going to do this and stay sane?” And I know that every parent of 2+ kids have dealt with this and deal with it every day. Forgive me for not being SUPER MOM.
I know we will get through it, and I’m incredibly grateful for my hubby, who has REALLY stepped up (and was already an amazing father) the last few months as I’ve struggled through morning sickness, exhaustion, extreme stress and every other hormonal roller coaster. He has more patience then I do in these “toddler terror” moments and I know he (and God) will be my source of strength as we welcome a new baby in 3 months. Until then, I might just have to perfect my Parent’s Serenity Prayer. Any suggestions? 🙂